So Long, Farewell Brownies....

I hate being fat.  I really do.  I am mentally preparing myself for another whole-hearted attempt to lose some weight.  It's mentally, physically, and emotionally exhausting.  You wouldn't think it would be SO difficult.  I've lost considerable amounts before, and it's so incredibly rewarding.  Why isn't that motivation enough to keep it up?  I did really well most of last year.  I went on a serious diet in November of '08.  I managed to lose nearly 40 pounds and keep it off until August of '09.  That was the month that I had elective surgery.


Okay.  Ever since I was about nine years old I had big breasts.  I was the only girl in third grade that needed a bra.  It only got worse as I got older.  As an adult they caused me additional problems.  I started having back and neck trouble, which lasted for years.  I tried just doing physical therapy for my back, but it didn't completely alleviate the pain.  When I found out that our insurance would cover the costs of a breast reduction, I got the ball rolling.  I had the surgery in August of '09.  From that moment on, I started gaining back the weight.  I couldn't have imagined how much the surgery would weaken me.  The recovery process was much worse than I thought it would be.  I was so thankful to everyone that brought food in for my family and me, but I ended up just sitting a lot and eating.  I still have not completely regained my upper body strength.  I am still about fifteen pounds lighter than I was when the original diet started, but that means I gained about 25 pounds.   


Enough excuses!  It's time to take hold of the reigns and get back on the dieting horse!  I am hopeful that I will be able to lose fifty pounds by August.  That gives me six months to take control and get serious.  If you also struggle with your weight, join me in this quest to become healthier.  I will try to update my weight loss every two weeks on here.  I will NOT be posting my actual weight, just the pounds lost.  Feel free to add your own successes or struggles by way of a comment to my posts.  Let's do it!  I am going to go and make some farewell brownies now.  Tomorrow morning starts the real deal.