Being important is not so important.

I've noticed something disturbing.  Most everyone these days fancies themselves a person of importance.  Don't get me wrong.  I know each and every person is important in their own way.  I just think we all think we're way too important.  My opinion is important.  Validation from others tells me so.

Last night, I logged off of Facebook.  I wanted to actually deactivate my account, but that would have meant losing my business page, too, and I didn't want to go that far.  I typed up a post to let my "friends" know that I wouldn't be on there for a while.  I don't know how long I'll stay off.  I admit that I want to go on and see if anyone has commented on or liked that post.  I've done this in the past, and it usually doesn't last more than a week or so.  It's a good test of one's priorities, though.

You wouldn't believe how many times in the last 24 hours I have had an urge to post a thought or what I'm doing.  How ridiculous is that?!?  Am I really so important as to think others are waiting to hear what I have to say?  Am I really so insecure as to need someone to comment or agree with what I have to say?  When did I become so needy?  That's not at all who I am.  I am determined to stay off until this urge to share isn't so second-nature.

You might say, "Well, what do you think a blog is?" and that's a valid point.  The difference is I have about two followers on here, and I rarely get a comment.  And I'm okay with that.  This is more of an outlet for me.  That's a healthy thing for my busy brain.

I enjoy many things about "social" media.  I use that term very loosely, since I believe it makes us decidedly less social in real life.  I enjoy catching up with friends and family that I would otherwise not see.  I like seeing everyone's personal pictures.  I'm a picture lover.  I do enjoy hearing what people are up to.  I'm just tired of seeing the same old "memes" making their rounds.  For anyone that doesn't know what a meme is, it's a picture with some kind of phrase on it.  Right now, you can find hundreds about the confederate flag, gay marriage, and a countless list of other hot topics.  There are ones in favor and against all issues.  Honestly, I like some people better when I don't know where they fall on certain issues.  I know that's a terrible way to be, but it's how I am.  I don't want to judge them.  That's easier done when I know less of their personal beliefs.  My newsfeed is also full of recipes.  I love a good recipe, but that's why I have Pinterest.  Okay.  So Facebook just isn't working for me, anymore.

I think it's important to look at why I want to share my life with others, especially the casual observers that aren't actually my friends in real life.  I think it's an easy way to make yourself think you have friends that aren't really friends.  If so-and-so likes my post, they must like me, too.  Right?  Wrong.  Again, I'm just not that important.

It's time to figure out what is really important to me.  Being important isn't important.